It sounds like you are dissociating, which is a trauma response. Find a therapist to work through this issue so you can break the cycle
The question I am in my 20s, surrounded by a supportive partner, family, and friends. I am also lucky enough to have had a good education and to have done well academically.
Earlier this year, I quit my job as a secondary school teacher in an inner-city comprehensive. I loved many aspects of the job and was good at it, but I began experiencing memory fog and the strange sensation of being outside my own body, even when teaching. Shortly before I made the decision to quit, a male student made a sexually violent threat towards me which wasn’t handled brilliantly by the school. After several years, I decided enough was enough and handed in my notice.
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